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Brooklyn Bridge was his symbol of New York, of America, and of Joan's
and his love which they had shared in its shadows. And the bridge
had come to know them, and to show them its own moods of happiness
in the sunlight, and strangeness in the fog. It was strong, and beautiful,
flinging itself into the sky, defying age, and being still young,
and the heart of power itself. Now he was going to Paris, by plane,
and it was as easy for him to leave America physically, as it was
for him to dig up the shallow roots, and prepare to plant them elsewhere.
The Brooklyn Bridge was his anchor in America, not a family, nor a
race, nor a religion, nor an identification with a whole people. Joyce
had said he had to leave Ireland to forge the uncreated conscience
of his race. He could not feel it that way. Could there be a conscience
to America, could New York and Texas, and Chicago, share the same
wonders, the same hatreds and stupidities, and greatnesses? |
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Maybe the Brooklyn
Bridge would have been at home in California, maybe, maybe it carried
in its old weather-beaten stone the conscience of America. And if
this were so, he had a right to leave it for a moment, to get from
under its shadow, stand clear, renew his perspective, and set down
what he saw from afar. He often wondered what it would be like to
say, with pride, I am a German, or a Frenchman, or an Englishman,
and there are no better people, and my family goes back ten generations,
all fine people, and we have gone to the same church in all that time,
and worshipped the true god, the only god, and when we die we shall
be buried in the same place we have always been buried, and our children
shall carry on after us. None of these thoughts had ever been his,
as a mongrel Jewish-Irish product he was second generation American,
midwestern, commercial, without land, without church, without an old
family, and with none of the pride or security which sometimes seemed
to go with those things, and he had not even a secure class identification
or a family profession to follow. |
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